Ik heb over ons gesprek van vandaag nagedacht: blijkbaar zit ik zo vol met; verraad en schade dat ik op gewetensmomenten alleen maar anderen aan kan doen wat ik vind dat mij ook is aangedaan - verstandelijk weet ik het, maar emotioneel is het sterker. Ik wil niet dat pijn besmettelijk is.
Your words are hurting me. Please dearest, let me seclude myself so I can think what you've reminded me of.
When the night falls eva', when the night falls ..
I sometimes am not able to judge the situation correctly; I often think that there's more going on, but that is not always true. Anyways, we already established that I´m scared that I won’t be able to emotionally defend myself against possible blames. I am truly not sure how much of this is self-inflicted and how much is to be changed- so the schizo-behaviour; if I´m aware of it, why can’t I help it?
